Wait a second. It’s 2019? I can’t believe it.
The time between Christmas and New Years is so surreal. I never know what day it is, where I am supposed to be, or what is actually happening. It’s like time goes forward and backward and in loops a little. (Jeremy Bearimy time…anyone a The Good Place fan?!😂) This year was especially bad because I was thrown off with my ex being in town and basically living with a friend for the week.
Last night while I was out celebrating with some of my friends, someone asked me about my New Years resolution. I hadn’t even thought about it. The last month and half-ish I have been preoccupied with a new relationship that I just never even thought about New Years coming, making resolutions or anything relating to it.
Today, after a very intense morning with S leaving, I had time to finally sit in my own house, cuddle with my babies and think about what 2019 might look like. And let me tell you, I am excited.
2018 brought me so far in my fitness journey. I have been pretty consistent with working out and eating better. I have learned how far I can push this body, and what triggers I have for numbness. I know what I can and can’t eat, and even though I don’t always follow what I should (pizza, please!?), I have started eating much healthier than in the past. I have also found that with slower build, I can do a lot more with my workout before my MS symptoms realize what I am doing. I like to think I am outsmarting this body!
I am going to be learning a new product at work, and that is exciting. I love learning, and while I am terrified of failure, or not knowing everything, I think this is going to be a fun adventure. I am ready to put my head down and really make things happen. It is an exciting time for many of us!
I am excited to watch my kids as they take on another year of life. L2 is going to start preschool this summer, and L1 is loving 1st grade. He is beyond ready to go back to school and be with his friends and read regularly. (Our schedule has been so crazy I think I’ve only read to him twice over break! 😳 I know I am not a perfect mom, so I’ll accept my failures there and get back to it now.)
So I guess my resolution is simple; to be better than I was the day before. I want to eat better. I want to be a better mom. I want to workout harder. I want to run further. I want to get closer to God. I want to focus more energy into relationships. I want to love my people harder. I want to improve myself each day, not with set goals that may fail, but to consciously try to be a better person each day. That might be something small like finally finishing a chapter book with L1 before the next library day, or it could mean that I finally do my half marathon in September. I don’t know.
I’m not making plans yet, because they’re meant to be broken. But I can tell you, it’s been a while since I’ve been as excited about a new year as I am this one. Cheers to great relationships and great improvements in yourself!
Happy new year!
❤ MS Andrea Jackson