There is no point

I’ve been so busy, I haven’t even had time to think about writing anything lately. I’ve had lots of fun events over the past month, and I feel so grateful for each and every moment.

I’ll say the time period from February 22-March 22 of this year is the busiest I have been in a very long time, but today I had a moment to reflect on it all.

In February, I celebrated my 30th birthday at a joint birthday party with 2 of my best friends, the day after one of our Sofar shows. It was our second show, and the first to sell out. The next weekend I went to Vegas to celebrate birthdays again, on our (it seems to be becoming) annual girls trip. During the week between the Sofar/birthday party and Vegas, I had some sort of anxiety attack (I don’t suffer from this, but I did feel very overwhelmed for a period of time and I didn’t know what to do about it) After Vegas I had two weeks to “relax” before our next Sofar event(last night), followed by an upcoming weekend in KC for my actual birthday. That’s next weekend and I am looking so forward to it.

The Sofar show last night left my heart feeling SO full. The events I have had with all my favorite people to celebrate my birthday so far have been so much fun, and full of so much laughter. And I know that this next weekend is going to be the perfect end to what accidentally became a birth-month celebration.

Today in church we were asked to take a couple moments and talk to God about what is weighing on our heart and give it to to God. As I sat there, I couldn’t think of anything in that moment. Sure, my life isn’t perfect, and I recognize that I can’t do anything without Him, but I am feeling so overwhelmed with the great things in my life that I don’t feel like I need to ask God to lighten my load at this time. Instead I thanked him, and passed my prayers onto someone beside me who probably has a little more for God to help with than I do.

It was kind of an emotional moment for me. I could have asked for help with being more patient with my crazy 3 year old son. I could have asked for help with accepting and overcoming my MS. I could have asked for guidance in a number of areas of my life, but I honestly feel so grateful for my life in this moment, that I couldn’t ask for more. I am painfully aware of two things about this; 1. It won’t last 2. Some people can never say that they are truly fulfilled.

I am 4 sleeps away from turning 30, and I am feeling great about it. I am happy in all my relationships and friendships, I am thankful for the weather getting warmer, I am loving my new role in the music scene in Columbia, and I am feeling as healthy as someone with MS can feel. I am looking forward to all the growth that I will experience in my 30s, and welcome it with open arms.

I don’t know exactly what has changed in my life to allow things to seem pieced together correctly at this moment, but I can’t discount the fact that I feel stronger in my faith than I have in a long time. I am learning a lot about myself and my relationship with God, and it’s really pretty exciting.

Now that I am reading back, the point of this post is there is no point. 😂 I’m looking forward to turning 30 and all the exciting things to come, while also feeling ready to take on any sort of challenges that come my way. So….Bring it on, life! I’m ready for you.

❤ MS Andrea Jackson

Ps. Picture of my wild 3 year old while we sat in the car because he couldn’t behave in public for that moment, with his jar he made at church today! ♥️